I have finally found something worthy to write about (for me, that is). DISCLAIMER: These are my thoughts/opinions from this document: https://docs.google.com/Doc?docid=0AXXeRl8i6vuwZGc4aDRudmtfMTV6OXBweGNi&hl=en. What I wrote here should not be taken seriously, because as what I have said, this is my OPINION, and everyone has the right to give their own opinion about stuff. And, applying what SoakedShoes@2OneDay Forums said, "I don't tell people to believe, I tell people to read. We're all mature enough to take sides."

Being one, out of millions of fans around the world, who relies on the internet to know stuff about their Idols, you can’t really define what’s true or what’s just made up. For us to know the truth, you really have to take a closer look, “Are they really different on-screen and off?”. When I read those SaSaeng accounts, I wasn’t sure whether to believe or not, though it has somehow changed my view of the boys, since those kinds of fans spend a hell lot of time stalking (I’m sorry, but I just had to use that term. No hard feelings?).

When I found out that Taec and Chan (2nd and 3rd/current biases, respectively. Khun was my 1st) had the worst attitude off-cam (well, not really the worst, but still, can it get any worse than that?) I felt that I was somehow betrayed, since I fell for their on-cam attitudes, which were probably the totally opposites of their REAL personalities, if you refer to the fan accounts (except for Khun though, he seems to have the cleanest record so far if you compare it to the other members). This made me think. What are their real personalities like? Will I still like them if their “bad attitudes” were real? Am I going to believe everything that I see?

My journey with 2PM

To be honest, I fell for 2PM because of their looks. It started with Khun and his wink on ISF. I was a starting fan when the news about Jay’s controversy started. And, I can’t believe it either but, I cried when I heard that Jay had left (It was a bit hard to cry because I was at school when I heard the news, two of my friends told me about it). And when I think about it, I would probably say that the sudden boost of 2PM’s popularity was because of Jay’s incident, since I myself admit that I became a fan because of Jay’s departure. I was devastated and really wanted Jay to come back, and at the same time, still supported 2PM with 6 members (I made my dad buy their 1st album, 1:59, from Korea, since he was in Seoul when the album came out). Reading the accounts about the members bullying Jay was really...something. I think, him, leaving was the greatest decision he ever made, if those accounts were true. He was probably getting tired of waiting and thought that this might be the best time to finally be free.

Anyway, I think I have said enough, for now. I shall rant again when I get in the mood. To be honest, again, this account made me confused on what I should feel. Is this trying to open my eyes to see the truth? Or is this just something that ruins other people’s lives?

Labels: 2pm, biases, Chansung, Jaebeom, Junho, Junsu, kpop, Nichkhun, rant, Taecyeon, Wooyoung

I re-read “My Imaginary Ex” last night, which was the reason why I slept at 4am. I don’t really know why though, I finished reading at quarter to three but then I don’t remember what I did until 4am. >.< anyway, I re-read that book because I was thinking if that kind of story would happen to me as well, finding your true love during college and not knowing about it until the other one is about to get married (not that I'm fed up on my fan girl fantasies, NO WAY, I am definitely still into my K-Pop loves). Yes, I admit I am a hopeless romantic, I’ve never been kissed and nbsb, truefax. I’m what you call, innocent, if you know what I mean.

I watched Iron Man 2 with my siblings, grandmother and helper. Yeah, no mom and dad, both were busy, and well, they’re separated, so you really won’t be seeing them together. But the trip was the reason why our mom got mad at us. We forgot to ask permission from her (since we were under her custody). I was about to cry in the middle of the movie, because she shouted at me. To make myself feel better, I bought the Tohoshinki Best selection 2010 2CD+DVD which was PhP700. I was happy that the DVD was packed with their performances, meaning I won’t be needing subtitles. *YAY* But honestly, what would make me feel so much better would be Starbucks, and Chansung. T_T

I heard that Chansung lost his passport and got stuck in LA because of that. Sadly Luckily, He was able to find it and he got back safely. I wish he was stuck here in the Philippines instead. I’d take care of him and stuff him with dried mangoes, and bananas, both fresh and dried. I think I’ve finally changed my bias (again) from Khun, to Taec, To Chan, probably because of the dream I had. All that’s left is Woo, the Jun bros, and probably Jay Park. After that, I have done what I have done to other goups, like SuJu (I forgot the sequence since they’re so many, but I do remember Kibum being my first), and DBSK (Jaejoong, Yunho, Junsu, Changmin, Yoochun).

Labels: biases, Chansung, dreams, kpop, life, rant

We Only Dream of What We Know
[chananaboo]

**Our dreams are frequently full of strangers who play out certain parts – did you know that your mind is not inventing those faces – they are real faces of real people that you have seen during your life but may not know or remember? The evil killer in your latest dream may be the guy who pumped petrol in to your Dad’s car when you were just a little kid. We have all seen hundreds of thousands of faces through our lives, so we have an endless supply of characters for our brain to utilize during our dreams.**


I posted this because lately, I’ve been having weird dreams. Last last night, I dreamt of a girl named Julia. Well, she’s just a minor character in my dream but it’s her name that’s stuck in my head and not the guy I was with. Then just last night, I dreamt of Chanunf...er...Chansung, we were seated on the bathtub together, but there wasn’t any water on it, and he wasn’t wearing any pants on. After that, I had this weird dream, U-Kiss was there! I scared Xander, which made me bow, and bow, and bow, until I hit myself on the door. Then I went inside the door, I saw Micky Park seated on the floor. And lastly, I was with guy, again, different from the previous dream, but this time I got his name, I think. It was Choong woo (?) and he has something to do with Etude. Isn’t Etude, like, a cosmetics company or something?

Anyway, to end this rant, I mean, it was said that Dreams are not about what they are about, but I just want to know, what does all of this mean? (>_<)

Labels: Chansung, dreams, life